These past few days, i just hate everything. Only one thing made me happy, which is my new laptop ! Just bought it. I love it so muuch. Its like my second wife to me. Anyway, back to the topic again. See me happy doesnt mean that im happy. It's just from the outlook. But deep down, im hurt. yes, HURT. get it? I just dont want to say it out.

Its been nearly 5 or 6 months that i've been waiting. I realise that it's useless for me to wait for you. I've always wanted to move on but it's hard. yes, HARD ! Tell the truth, i really love you. Whenever im online on msn and seeing you online too, i've always wanted to make the move of starting the conversation but i just don't want to. Know why? I've always have a mind set that says you dont want to entertain me. All i do was just wait. Waiting for you to msg me on msn. But it never happen and i guess, it will NEVER happen.

Now, you are happy with someonelse and i can't do anything about it. Truthfully, i hate to see that happen. Seeing couples around me just making me hurt. I wish that i could be loved by you.
But i know that i cant force you to love me. I can't have everything that i want in life. Yes, i realise that. All i can do now is just wishing you the best in your relationship. I know. I hate it.

ARGHHHHH ! FUCK LUHH ! I super duper hate this feeling ! Damn it !

HATE IT . HATE IT . HATE IT !

*Friends, i know you guys want me to change badly. Saying it out is easy but its hard actually. If you guys are in my shoe, i guess you guys can understand how hard it is especially when you really really love that someone badly.

I want to move on. I always want to cause i can't bear the pain that i'm going through.
If changing is that easy, i think that life won't be that hard and painful.

Lets drop that topic. Anyway, my crew get into dance xplosion 3 finals and we didn't won any of the top 3 places. But still, being in the finals is already great cause it's a hard and tough competition since preliminary round. Competing with 26 other dance crews for top 8 places in finals and we got in. Yeah ! On the other hand, i got a dance performance coming up next on 21st june which is on this coming saturday. It will be at heeren ( i don't really know the spelling). It will be a short performance. Will be using dance xplosion 3 finals item back again cause no time to practice. Hehe.

Till here.

*Pain and Hurt .